A Universal Spoken Word By Khalfani Malik Khaldun DEDICATION 1 dedicate this book to my be- loved Mother’s spirit, my Sisters, my Nieces, my Aunts, all my female Cousins, and Black Women in soci- ety, and the Sisters unfortunately behind bars. To the Sisters who ran off from their relationships once the Judge handed down the sentence that scared you. To those Sisters caught up in that vicious cycle of drugs, violence, abuse to their bodies. Stay strong and keep holding on. 1 love you (Penny Kennedy & Janae Kennedy). LOVE to YOU = Bro. Khalfani ~ South Chicago ABC Zine Distro - P.0.Box 721 Homewood, IL 60430 2 CONTENTS of the BOOK (1) THE STRAIN OF SLAVERY’S PAST (2) WHAT YOU ARE TAUGHT SO SHALL YOU BE (3) THEGOOD AND BAD IN YOUR RELATIONSHIP WITH YOUR BLACK MEN. (4) WHY ARE BLACK MEN CHOOSING WHITE WOMEN. () BLACK WOMEN: GOD'S ORIGINAL GUARDIAN ANGEL - THE 'VALUE OF THE FEMALE GENDER. (6) BLACK WOMEN YOU MUST EDUCATE YOUR DAUGHTERS (7.) NO MORE DISRESPECT. LOVE YOURSELVES AND EMBRACE YOUR BLACKNESS AND YOUR BEAUTY. (8:) WHY 1 LOVE MY BLACK WOMEN: THE GENUINE APRECIATION. Bl OPENING INTRODUCTION My name s Leonard McQuay aka Bro. Khalfani Malik Khaldun. 1am a Black (New Afrikan) man that has unfortunately spent (24) concurrent years inside the confines of Indiana's State Prison Plan- tations. 1 am 41 years old and I have surrendered all criminal incli- nations to embrace a political consciousness and translormation of loving my self and people. Knowing that bettering who I am means that 1 may very well be a quality example and good representation of Black mankood. As children, we imagine what our lives can and will be. We trav- erse the gamut of possible professions that would provide us with a lifetime of elation in our crystalline world. In the span of a week to years we travel down the spectrum of life’s work becoming instant masters of any craft . We went from Cowboys to Indians, from Doc- tors to Fathers to Firemen, from Super Heroes; to villains. There was no dimensions of existence we could not fathom. We know our ancestors went from being Kings and Queens, to slaves with slave-masters. Yet we still stand and we're still coming, growing, and trying to rebuild our fallen nation. Why did we stop believing we could do anything beautiful people? 1 have grown up inside a prison cell. Throughout my life I have seen some dismal things such as depression, dependency, death, destitution, and the gloominess prison imprisonment clicits in us through one or two responses: comfort and complacency in our misery or motivation to discover potential. 1 challenge you Black Women and my brothers on lockdown to attempt the latter. I chal- lenge o dare each and every current or potential recidivist to rec- oncile with yourselves, chalk up what ever inconsistent behavior you may have as experience, and move forward. As a straight Black man, I can state being separated from, and not being able to engage in sexual relations with a woman is ab- normal to me. We were made to love each other. The most unfor- “ tunate reality of Black men coming to prison is our women (Black Women) tend to abandon us once the Judge hands down sen- tences. This really has a lasting affect on our trust in relations with many Black Women. Not (all) women run off and abandon their lovers and men. This is why you have White Women connecting ‘more and more with Black men. They're being smart, knowing that inside these prison walls. Black mén are transforming our lives, and becoming the kings we are supposed to be. Standing by the men they've chosen builds a bond that's unshakable. Once their together his coming home is her (constellation prize). So, waiting s ultimately worth it. I respect the hell out of any woman that over stands how important it is to stand by her man. A woman must believe that to invest her life and resources in a man in prison. That he has to show his higher self, through respon- sible work and stiff determination to get home to his woman. It's my hope that my words will be an encouragement to (all) Black Sisters to step up and be better examples and stop cheating and Iying or running off on your partners. There are moments when a man is in prison, his relationship with his woman helps him navigate through some very degrading moments. The visits, mail, money for survival, and just hearing a sweet female voice. Helps us remain sane and affirms for us we're still men with (all) our faculties intact. I'must assume that no man or woman ever imagined themselves spending years of their lives inside prison. Being subjected to the whimsical moods of other people, and this means to me that many dreams or aspirations that have died in the streets or prison plantations. Twrite toleave a record of my existence, to shout to the present/ future world that I was here and...l understood my past, present, and prospective states of human existence. That, although I am in prison, 1 live on my own terms. I write to affirm that we are crea- tors and as such, must manifest our own worlds go our way, and pay to ourselves to give us the strength, the will, the audacity to travel the touted off-the-map paths that lead to greatness, juxta- posed to the mediocre highways of the majority. My priority is to reach my release, that grand destination or die trying, to achieve 51 it. This booklet is my contribution to Black Women. This is the spoken word of my redemption. You will enjoy it and you may write to me with your thoughts, your love, your support, and your embrace. These are the words of a clearly dedicated Souljah and defender of the Second Self of God the Black Woman on Earth. My soul and my spirit cries out to you, your validation means| something to me. (24) years cut off from you and my family has made me humble and appreciative. There are some people that stand in solidarity with me in the Free World. The Campaign to Free Khalfani Malik Khaldun exists ly to promote righting an injustice that occurred, that resulted my being framed on a murder charge inside prison of a prison guard. Prior to being released on my initial charge in 1994. I was found guilty and sentenced to a (60) year sentence. Massive sup- port is needed, if you want to be a contributor. You may contact me directly, or you can reach out to the campaign team’s post of- fice box. Campaign to F fonl Malik & & 4BC Parg-Legal Services ¢/o Twitch Entropy P.O. Box 7187, Austin, Texas 78713 () Message to Black Women and your Daughters: (Reflections on the Significance of the Woman) “Until we learn to love and prorect our women, we will never be fic and recog- ized people on the carth. The other races of people among us will never recog- ize us unil we Protect our Women.” ‘The Stain of Slavery Past Black Women can and have a moment of your time? For if you bless me with that moment, I want to revisit a time that was terri- ble for our ancestors, who were the direct descendants of, and that we are inheritors of that past and story that can’t be denied. We must expose it whenever we can. ‘The transatlantic slave trade was forced upon our ancestors with the intent of destroying everything that identified the Afrikan peo- ple as mighty and powerfully intelligent. Our tribal ancestors were bought, traded, and broken to submission to be relocated to all four corners of the carth, while Afrikan men and their sons were being systematically broken of resistance attitudes who displayed any propensity to retaliate through violence for the slave master’s ‘wrongs. The slave master in his fits of perversion and racist lust. Would sneak away from his wife’s bed into the female Slave Quar- ters and rape and sodomize Afrikan Women. These acts of violence and White terrorism would become the norm on Slave Plantations all across the US. and the world where Afrikan slaves were held captive. These rapes unfortunately resulted in widespread pregnancies. Tainted pure Afrikan bloodlines with European (DNA) and created lighter skinned Afrikan people. Out of rage from being raped, women forcefully aborted their children. Those that gave birth, these children that were allowed to grow into maturity, soon would find favor due to being of a lighter skin complexion from their fathers the slave master. Marking the beginning of a clash be- tween the lighter skinned Afrikan over the darker skinned Afr kan. To maintain control and discourage solidarity, unity, loyalty, among plantation slaves. They had to create a system that pitted il young against old, light against the dark skinned. Undeniably im- planting a deeply rooted generational sense of sell-hate. They had ‘our ancestors hating each other and loving the master who created the atmosphere that caused us to hate each other. This ugliness many of us also relate to the (Willic Lynch Syndrome) has found its permanent residence in our homes and communities. To make some sense of why we seem to have lost our way, our love of self, and our love and appreciation for women. ‘The stain is very apparently clear. Those men who have been re- awakened from the ignorance of self-hate, and now embrace self - love. We have a genuine obligation to take one day at a time to right the wrongs we have generated against Black Women. What you’re taught So Shall You Be In the 1950's and 1960’ the role of the Black Woman as the first teacher of her home was significant. As time progressed, these trends changed and mothers begin to teach their daughter how to pursue the right man. Bad choices like what types of cars they're driving or how much money they bave, took center stage over whether the man was intelligent or responsible, or did he even if he know how to treat and protect a woman. So, the right man be- came the one with the right material possessions, even if he was Mr. Wrong in all the other categories. ‘This mentality would come to be known as the “Bad Girl Gold Digger” mentality,. What must be understood though is, not all women then practiced this mentality, nor do they now. This has since been past down like a generational curse throughout the Black Communities across Amerika. Now, young imitating their sisters, mothers, aunts, and other beautiful Black Women and other women they see, not knowing they're reducing the value and greatness of one of God’s best creations. Black mothers, you have an obligation to teach your daghters early who they are and that they must love themseives. And to never engage in behaviors that would make it easy for any man looking to destroy their essence, or to feel justified in attempting to o so. The Black Woman from birth is a creation of something God-like 8 like. She s supposed to be nurtured by the best examples of Black Womanhood. If she s taught to be a lady, she'll internalize lady- like behavior to mature and develop accordingly. But, if her envi- ronment is overwhelmed by women who had terrible examples of black female neglect, she will grow up seeking nourishment and affection, and end up in the clutches of men and women that ma- nipulate them through their insecurities. Then be consumed by life's many disappointments, leading to a vicious cycle of poor ex- amples for future generations to come. Black men who still exhibit the ignorance of a slave mentality, who do not fully overstand their injustices against you, will always be a role player in further- ing the already fragmented and fragile state of beautiful black un- conscious women and your daughters. The Good and Bad in your Relationships with your Black Men There are some very impressive examples of Good Quality R tionships between Black Men and Black Women, who are raising up strong, educated black children. They make time for them and aflectionately nurture what information their children are ex- posed to. Most importantly their teaching them that being black is absolutely beautiful. That to love themselves is to respect and love the parents God blessed to give them life. Now, on the other hand, there are Black Relationships where children who didn't ask to be in the world, created by two people that may have only been “in lust”, and not in love. So, once the children are born, the father is gone and momma has to raise them i a single-pareat home. This picture could also be reversed, that once a baby is born for whatever the reason a mother disappears, we know crack cocaine is one source for this, as well as joblessness along with poverty are others; and self-hate has also beat a lot of beautiful Black Women down. Irresponsibility, poor choices, and a lack of self-respect, made many lose their desire to help re- emancipate Bad Black Relationships. © Your Black men constitute one of the most misunderstood groups in these United States, paradoxically, society has thrust upon them the burden of being simultancously invisibie and overly visible. We are made overly visible by a media that seldom sheds a light on the number of Afrikan men who are incarcerated, on drugs, unemployed, or in gangs. Yet, these statistics conveniently neglect the fact that a great number of (us) are responsible and faithful role models and leaders, men who make an honest living, support their families, and champion the interests of our people. Sadly, these are the black men that lie in the shadows of the na- tional spotlight, and who are largely invisible in Amerikan Soci- ety. The ruin of the strong black female and male relationship, is a real poison. Lies, deception, and cheating on one’s mate, results in dysfunctional relationships. Black women, in order to have the ‘man you want, all the games you play has to cease to exist. When you know the man you have has proven to be the truth, no one or nothing should cause you to be disrespectfully unfaithful. Every time you betray your lover, soul mate, or husband, you release a lot of negative vibrations into the atmosphere, reducing your es- sence to be called all the derogatory names men call women that betray them. Your betrayal leads to your man internalizing disloyalty and dis- trust, whereas he will never be loyal to any woman again. When black men betray their wives, lovers, soul mates, by cheating on them. The same dynamic applies to women, theyl refuse to be completely faithful, and less trusting. Why are Black Men Choosing White Women? This s in some part, a result of that (Willie Lynch Syndrome) used on us generations ago. Black men that reach success in vari- ous fields of business, have for a while equated their success with the need to have a trophy that symbolizes acceptance in White Amerika. This is changing slightly, women from all comers of White Amerika are pursuing Black men aggressively because, not o} only are they not generating a lot of wealth, they are capitalizing on the Black Woman's neglect to her Black Man. Black poverty, lack of education, an unemployment has been the cause of the Black man’s criminal mentality. A black father that loves their children, who is down on his luck to put food on his table, will sell drugs, rob, cheat, and steal. Bringing him in contact with the criminal justice system. When black men go to prison, many of the women slowly disap- pear, leaving us to endure this plight on our own. Having our strong black women in our lives, makes doing time endurable. Be- ing abandoned by you creates a lot of despair and resentment in our hearts; most women are not conditioned or willing to ride it out with their men. Winnic Mandela a South Afrikan (Black) woman remained loyally by the side of her husband Nelson, who was in prison for 26 years; there are some exceptions to the rule rareas they may be. Other black women seem to feel that a black man can't do noth- ing for them while in prison, this reality is now known wide- spread, while white women are beginning to step up and support these men abandoned and forgotten by you. These women are searching to find strong quality men on the internet and in the streets. Their coming up with “blanks” or a lot of boys masquerad- ing as men, they don’t want to be with. So, their entering prisons or writing black men, and finding the qualities of men in prison they can’t find in society. ‘These men, in their minds eye will be in prison when they're at home asleep at night, or when their at work. They know these men are not out in the streets cheating or whoring around. They are investing in this man who will ultimately come home to them; they see their investment as worth it. These women are all shapes and sizes, they are calling attorneys, visiting their men regularly, send- ing them money for basic necessities, falling madly in love and ap- preciating the deep passion that dwells in the heart of conscious and educated black men. There is no greater feeling then giving Tove and being loved back. While, black women may be upset that " white women are being chosen over them by black men in prison. You must acknowledge the role you've played that made it easy for them to replace you. Honestly, she deserves her happiness also. If white women are honoring black men by loyalty, love, and action leading to their chosen man being released, then I can respect our brother’s choice to love his white woman; what will you do to love and support your black man? You must stop denying him access to his children. Stop using the children to punish him. Start going to the prisons to support your black men. Doing so will send a powerful message to White Amerika and white women alike, that you will no longer make it easy for the system or anyone to destroy the black men you used to call your man. Be a true friend to him, for he may be the next chosen one to uplift our lost found nation. Many of (us) conscious black men have opened our eyes and pos- sess the i the path. You have to start believing in us black men again. Black Women God’s Original Guardian Angel - the Value of the Female Gender The Black Woman, (Queens) on Eath. The female, according to the bible, is a part of man. But you are more than a part of man, the woman is the Second Self of God. Black women, if you know why you are as you are, if makes it better for you to be yourself. Black ‘women, you are the women of God, the more (we) grow to reflect God, then the hearts of you women will calm down and be more at peace. You are disappointed, disillusioned, and hurt by (us) be- cause you expected something and did not get what you expected. An illusion attracted you, but reality woke you up. Were you wrong to expect? No. The Holy Qu'ran deals with the nature of things, because no person can rule unless you understand the na- ture of that, which you are trying to rule. You must understand ‘Order to develop your self-mastery. &) Sister Susan Taylor of Essence Magazine said: the Lvory Coast 1o Amerika. This is our watch, We must reqffirm_our commis- ment to our people. We must use our skils to emporer qur people and sell the. "BEOPLE the truth.™ ‘The Holy Qu'ran says, “men are the maintainers of women.” It is the natural order and role of man to work hard to produce what is mecessary to maintain a woman and the children that are produced from that woman. He is a protector, provider, and he is supposed to guide. We cannot guide a woman with sex, and if a man is dumb. enough to think that sex can guide a female, then the marriage or relationship falls down, Guidance comes from the brain, no where else. Guidance must manifest wisdom and truth that is from God. ZIhe enly thing that can maintain you (the woman) of God, s the word of ‘God rightly brought from o man wha is the image and likeness of God. When man is right with God in himself, he guides his family through life and protects them. What then comes up out of you is a natural desire to praise (us), When you fall genuinely in love by recciving it back, it makes you want to serve and cater to (us). You do things to please (us), whether it be cooking a great meal, or cleaning up our home, or the way you fix yourself up. You feel powerful, Quecnly, because (we) brought happiness to your soul; by being the men we suppose to be. Black men can attract you, but we cannot hold you down. We can give you children, yet we drop the ball in helping you prop- erly raise them. We can make money, but we become seifish when it's time to contribute. Beautiful Precious Black Woman, you have been greatly abused, misused, and disrespected. Men have lost re- spect for our Black Jewels, discarding them not knowing to hurt youin any way, means hurting ourselves. When 2 woman is innocent, a virgin, and is raised in a whole- some environment, she loves purely. Her first love in a wholesome my environment is the male image of her father. She loves to be hugged by her father because it's safe and secure; our nature is the same. A woman is made secure in a good man, and a good man is made secure in God. There’s a natural sequence, as the Bible teaches: “Ged is the head of man, man is the head of woman, and woman is the head of the child” When all is in accord with this, the natural order functions properly, there is joy and speak and peace. Black women, you're three times the worth and value of man, because you bring forth life. Women teach and train the children. S0, if you are an ignorant, unlettered, and foolish woman, you will give rise to a backwards people. So, when socicty wants to take the world down, they'll start with destroying the value of knowledge in a woman. When anybody denies you knowledge of your true self, they deny an entire nation of people. That's how valuable a woman is. Queens, we must recognize that something went wrong with US, Black men and women through theé properly reestablishing our generational family units. We must reverse the ugliness we exhibit toward one another from the affects of that racist (Willie Lynch Syndrome). We must stop hating and envying the successful strides we make in this existence. Every black leader who has tried to break this process has been falsely accused, maligned, brought to jail, beaten, and even put to death. Black women, after you marry our brothers, you realize he has no discipline or self-control. So, you start looking somewhere else, only to find that somebody else is in that same state. You run from one man after another, and you end up disappointed again. So, why not stay with and stand by the man you have and help make him into a good disciplined man. God knew what he was doing when he made you in all of your beautiful glory. God created your form to be appealing to your man's eyes. The Holy Qu'ran says you were created to give man peace and quict of mind and to be a consoler for him. |} Black Women you must Educate your Daughters Hyper-sexuality is being associated with today’s young black women, a poison that allegedly demands young women offer themselves o any man who asks. Many young black teenage fe- males feel isolated and alone because their mothers are not educat- ing them about their bodies or about the dangers of sexual abuse. Many other young women refuse to degrade themselves in ex- change for male companionship; we must arm young black women with tools they need to make wise choices. There is a corporate- driven “slut culture” being promoted in the United States. The oppression and misuse of women is not new to Amerika, or Amerika culture, but many sec a crisis of misogynistic and racist clements that are damaging the soul of the nation and hurting chil- dren, women and men in the process. Our black women, in par- ticular, have historically been portrayed as sexual objects to justify slavery, rape, sexual abuse and denial of respect and opportunity. “Hotness” and sex appeal are also being pushed on adolescents and younger girls in a dangerous way. Girls and young women suffer intellectual, psychological and physical problems as a result of messages that push sexualization. A person is held to a standard that equates physical attractiveness (narrowly defined) with being sexy. Made into a tool for others to use sexuality, rather than seen as a person with the capacity for independent action and decision-making, and/or ; sexuality i s appropriately imposed upon young women. Shame and anxiety, was linked with three of the most common mental health problems diagnosed in girls and women; cating disorders; low self-esteem; and depression or depressed moods; had negative consequences on agirl's ability to develop a healthy sexual self-image. Educate your Daughters. The increased sexualization of young girls coincides with the increase over time in teen pregnancy, sexually transmitted diseases and single parent households. Moreover, one in four girls in this country have had a (STD). We are not raising or educating them (5] Right. We are failing to nurture them the right way what they need. ing them Historically women and young girls across all races have been seen as property. But, black women have been especially debased. During slavery, the black woman's value was connected to how many children she could bear and servicing the sexual nceds of slave owners. The aggressive sex culture and industry, and nega- tive images of black men promoted by white corporate executives is undermining black male and female relationships. The black community is the most besieged community in Amerika, and if you break down and undermine the relationships, you destroy the fam- ily structure and foundation of strength and self-determination in apeople. No more Disrespect—Love yourselves Embrace your Blackness and your Beauty If no one ever values your intelligence, your talents, skills, and the beauty of your chastity and modesty, how will future genera- tions of young women learn to appreciate themselves? This why it's extremely important you have a strong sense of identity, not knowing who you are and the purpose of your existence is very emotionally unhealthy. Black men have a moral duty to protect and respect our women and forge a way of life for you in this society. They should be free to express themselves in an environment where a woman will be “honored” and not have to be worried that someone’s going to harass or proposition them. A woman should be free to rise as high as her gifts and talents will allow. Black men have to step up, strike out, and build this kind of reality for our Black women, sisters, and mothers; who are and will be our partners in progress. We need to create and control institutions that reflect eternal values grounded n the law of God, which protect women from abuse and mistreat- ment. ‘While many Black men, this writer included, are partial to light- [0} Skinned “red bones”, we confess to the reality beyond the physical attributes, we have beautiful women of all shades of Brown. How- ever, the continued preference for lighter sisters among the Black Community bears witness to psychic wounds that are not com- pletely healed. The poisonous seli-hatred that pours freely in the rejection of dark blackness is painful evidence of our unresolved racial anxieties about our true beauty and sell-worth. Dark black women have often been cast aside and looked down upon because they embody the most visible connection to a fertile Afrikan heritage whose value remains suspect in our culture and nation. Stop identifying yourselves as a had bitch or whore. Some of you have embraced these backward identities as validating your self-worth. You shouldn’t want to be nobody’s “bottom bitch”, how can you find pride or dignity in that? God gave you the (special gift) to bring life into this world. Take a minute to think about the value of being one that creates. You are God’s highest creation—like female Gods (Goddesses) on this Earth. How then could you abuse the Temple God blessed you with or allow others to mistreat your body. You must embrace your identity, your many shapes, shades in color, physical looks, because always remember, it’s all from God. Our genetics are individual blue prints that con- nects us to our parents and thus, to God the original creator s all. You must respect and bonor your greatness, if we can ever ex- pect Black family and community to rebuild itself . Stop hating one another, embrace your sisters where ever you know they are. Be that shining example that young black women need and want to be ke. Why I Love Black Women: The Genuine Appreciation (Final Note) Black women have given us life, Love, and often fought for us when we were to0 afraid to fight for ourselves. They have suffered indignities, hardships, and rejection to make a way for us as our mothers, sisters, and even our wives. We owe you better than what ' 07 »u have now or have been afforded in current society, and it is e we start to repay a long awaited overdue debt. As a strong New Afrikan (Black) Man, I was raised by a strong ack woman, who was forced to be responsible for my father's of not being there. Carricd her (5) daughters and (3) sons on « back. She raised her daughters to respect themselves, and her s to never disrespect black women or the young women we em- ace and later give our hearts to. She wasn’t perfect, far from it,